whee. This is the greatest emancipation since the cultural revolution. Only two mcq paper left but I have already run through the whole syllabus. So, mugging would be redundant

Thus, I declare that, with effect from today, o levels have ended unofficially!

Imma gonna burn my A maths textbook to appease my seething anger. Apparently I practised until 走火入魔 yet I can’t attempt all the questions during o levels correctly. Cambridge, I hold you in contempt. How can you shatter our confidence with just a piece of paper? We are just but young, innocent and untainted souls you know?

Well, at least we can stop acting like hamsters on a running wheel now. This hedonic treadmill has to disappear, for at least two months, until it reappears again….

Just when I have pinned up high hopes about the end of o levels, my dreams have met its demise, shattered massively into thousand shards. Crashed into an abyss of darkness!

I.have.been.trifled.with. by someone who has tricks up the sleeve!

I always have the grasp of situations but this time…well I just cant execute my thoughts into actions. What are theories for anyway, sigh.

Why does some use snobbish indifference as a masquerade to fool? Is it a folly to judge first impressions or should I reinterpet the bad manners and shocking rudeness? hmmm.

我们素未蒙面, 你为何揭晓这么多？

真人不露相,露相非真人？

I must mix sense with sensibility.

I must mix sense with sensibility.

I must mix sense with sensibility.

{what i wrote doesnt neccesarily represent my point of view. My whimsicalness may just happen to act up, this may be just a composition composed by an imaginative mind.}

(oh shit, title spelt wrongly. ahaha.)

“Arriba, Arriba, Andele‘, Andele‘, yee-ha, yee-ha!!!!!

ho hum. I need to speed up my gear, get my act up.

Borrowed books from the school library yesterday to ward off my boredom, all thanks to Andre. I have two academcic books over-dued for 6 months, planning to return them only after o’s. Oh, I’m a man with virtues.

I feel so detached from the world today. I need to gain enlightenment somehow. Maybe I should follow Siddhartha Gautama’s footsteps and sit under the bodhi tree. Then, what if an apple drops down? That’ll be Sir Isaac Newton all over again, hurhur.

I’m being flooded with a torrent of conflicting emotions now. Oh, I shouldn’t leave my mind void like that. Unhealthy. Should not let my brain be a hollow chamber and allow it to build castles in the sky. But Einstein found the E=mc2 formula through that way. But I’m not Einstein, haha.

We have so many standards to live up to everyday. I have failed terribly. I have to please cynical old sods, fit into the crowd. Pretend to like people I dont like. I think I’m too skeptical sometimes. Oh, I have so many prejudices, thanks to mr.confucius and my politician-alike family.

People who have sex before marriage are bad. People who have one-night stands are promiscuous

People who smoke are uncouth. Being disrespectful to adults will get strike by lightning.

People who dont study have no goals. Must upkeep racial harmony, so that we will have regional stability and people will invest in us. Must study hard hard to upkeep singapore’s economy.Bear a cradle full of children to save the economy.

Do not be late for school. cannot be gay. gasp. or your mum will throw you out of the house.

Being a chinese is so difficult, everything is about upholding the tradition and flying the flag up high. But at least I’m better than my ancestors who have to wear ponytails. I should count my blessings already.

Ya, whatever. Maybe I should slacken a bit and start to see the good in everyone else, even if they practised sodomy before wtf. *Beams* Humans are so double-standardized sometimes. Teachers tell us not to say fuck and I swear I heard more than three teachers in our school say the big fuck word.

Maybe I should be more optimistic and smile with my mouth full of teeth so that everyone will like me. Oh, who cares about liking me anyway, sigh. I’m overly sarcastic. I should restrain myself a little. Praise everyone around me, even if they don’t deserve it.

Oh, seriously my social skills are crumbling. I should stop being so schizo and assume things. Stop being so preposterous in my presumptions. I like to assume that everyone hates me, and I’ll adjust myself to fit into the norm. I’ll very hard to crack old hard jokes and make everyone rattle with glee. Then when I find that people don’t appreciate my joke, I’ll cringe.

Oh, this entry is so sadistic wtf. It sounds like the person who wrote this just slit his wrist.

okaes, buaix. I’m cheerfullx nowx. hehex. buaix. Imma gonna study A maths now.

 Dedication: This is for the staggering lost souls preparing for o levels, wtf.

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
& Nobody’s gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothings been going my way lately
I decided right here and now that my outlooks gonna change

That’s why I’m gonna
Say goodbye to all the tears I’ve cried
For everytime somebody hurt my pride
Feeling like they won’t let me live life
& Take the time to look at what is mine

I see every lesson so clearly
I thank God for what I got from above
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can’t succeed in taking my inner peace from me
They can say all they wanna say about me

But I’m gonna carry on
Keep on singing my song

I never wanna dwell on the pain again

There’s no use in reliving how I hurt back then
Remembering to well the hell I felt when I was running out of faith
Every step I vowed to take was towards a better day

Cos I’m about to
Say farwell to every single lie
& All the fears I’ve held too long inside
Everytime I felt I couldnt try
All the negativity I had inside

For too long I’ve been struggling. I couldn’t go on
But now I’ve found I’m feeling strong and Im moving on
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can’t succeed in taking my inner peace from me
They can say all they wanna say about me

But I,Im gonna carry on
I’m gonna keep on singing my song

Whoa, & everytime I tried to be what they wanted from me
It never came naturally
So I ended up in misery, wasn’t able to see
All the good around me
I wasted so much energy on what they thought of me
Simply just remembering to breathe

I’m human, I ain’t able to please
Everyone at the same time, so now I find
My peace of mind living one day at a time

I’m human and I answer to one god
It comes down to one love
Until I get to heaven above

I’ve made the decision
Never to give up
Til the I day I die no matter what

I’m gonna carry on & keep on singing my song…..

My mum had hidden the com again, ha! I’ve searched every nook and cranny, highs and lows but to no avail. T_T I’m basically deprived of a man’s basic needs now. huhuhu. But it’s for my own good cause I always subcummb to computer gratification wtf.

The com has always played a pivotal role in my demise, but I’m a willing party! My life supporting system, sigh.

At com lab now arh, Higher chinese lessons rock my socks!

Anyway, A maths {Area under a region} can suck my ass wtf. Seriously, I always have problems visualising things, but they say men are supposed to be visual animals, sigh. I see everyone doing the test like easy breezy Japanesey, I think I’ll end up with 14/25 T_T. Kinematics saved my big, fat ass :D:D:D:D

People always say that I have the highest T-score in the class, supposed to live up to my name yadda yadda but seriously, I think my studying engine has like rusted. I need to keep it roaring again somehow.

Oh, my glorious past. Seriously, I dont know why we have to go to such an extent to validate our abilities/capabilities. I wished that I was born in the 1960’s  when life isn’t so competitive. I must have crossed the reincarnation bridge at the wrongest time, oh mother!

But then again, I should count my blessings. If I’m born in africa, I’ll be stricken with poverty! I’ll suffer from malnutrition and get aids from my mother or something. Being born in a china farm also very kelian if you’re a girl, you’ll be dumped into the shitbowl!!! Nooooo!

Oh wait, I’m studying in a catholic school for goodness sake. I should believe in afterlife!!! Everlasting life!!!! If I don’t commit any sins, that is.

the reason why I’ve not updated is because i’ve been suffering from pre-exam depression. Currently, I’m suffering from post-exam depression but don’t worry, there’ll be an update tonight.

The things I do for the free tickets

I want the nuffnang tickets!

Please give me the nuffnang tickets or I’ll turn sour ad cranky! I’ll grimace, and shrivel up into a ball! I just don’t want to be bored on national days! hehe.

Sigh* I failed quest 33. 2 more quest to honey potion!

Call me irresponsible by letting this page rot,decompose and diffuse back into the earth as molecules.

*smiles sheepishly* and sticks tongue out. I think acting cute using a comic character is so much more efficient and tongues won’t wag! Look what happened to ice-angel, poor girl! So many things had happened in the blogosphere recently and I wasn’t here to grab a piece of the action.

Sigh* I think I had lost the ability to blog. Everytime I access this page, I will have psychological barrier and mental block. Is there a cure?

My schedule is getting so tight, even tighter than steven lim’s yellow underwear….

Talking about irresponsilbility, I did one nefarious deed yesterday. I went against my words! But youth.sg was evurl too…They like to force teenagers who don’t know anything about the working world to cover events for them! Adults will reject the job at first hand but you know how fickle minded teenagers can be….

They didn’t even offer any tranportation fee =.= still want me go. Sorry lah calvin! Turning down the job at last minute.