Okie, my thinking wheel has grind to a halt since PSLE. Oh, my celebral facility has ceased to function since PSLE.

I needa connect my neurones and put on my thinking cap anyhow.

I want to have knowledge boundless as the sky and as deep as the sea!!!! =)))))))

my avarice for intellect inquiry has no bounds!!!! haha wtf, blatant liar!

I don’t want to serve kopi in a random coffeeshop house in Geylang! They say 行行出状元 but im not cut for that kind of job! My dialects suck. Crude words don’t count k.

Yea, I wanna work in the comfort of a Fujitsu air-conditioned room. But must be energy saving k, must be environmentally friendly wtf. So that I can kiao kah.

6 points wait for meeee!!!!!!!!!! I mean under 10 points. Greedy people shall come to a sticky end too…

sigh, im turning 16 tomolo, gonna be the worst birthday ever. nuff said.

The economy has always been bad, according to my mother. Then I said it’s ok what, enough for us to eat can already. Then she said I havent even work yet, what do I know?

ok, lets just see what I know here.

America decided to sneeze and the whole world’s economy is now covered in snot. TNCs closing down. 600 over starbucks company closed down due to the decreasing demand of coffee??

The turban-wrapped uncles has decided to export less oil to the whole world, hence the sky-rocketed prices of oil. Must be americans fault, go incur wrath in them for what!!!! Withdraw your guns, soldiers! Rice price soared due to increasing global demand and shrinking supply. Farmers expecting poor harvest lah, sigh let’s all eat hamburgers instead.

Sigh, maybe I should advise my china friends to go back and plant rice for us. Sounds like a good deal.

I fear for Singapore’s safety. Our only resources are our people and only people can sustain the economy but our youngsters are getting less and less patriotic nowadays, under the stockade of moral and social strictures.

we’re damn damn damn confined I tell you. Law of physics: “the more confined a particle is, the faster they will move!”

Make Singapore a better place through less oppression and more recognition. Yea, our economy is great. Our infrastructures are complete. We are clean and green, thanks to fines.

What happens to the social development then.

There are other benefits more highly valued, ya know. good and safe working conditions, freedom to choose jobs and livelihoods, freedom of movement and speech, sense of belonging, sense of purpose in life, freedom to showcase creativity.

Our media freedom is kinda bad. That’s why we cant produce Jane Austen, Shakespear and big-shot directors like Lee An. Jack Neo is the closest you can get.

Yea, cause labour is the only resource of singapore. We have to drive the economy anyhow. Have to be disciplined so that investors will be confident of investing in us. Have to import foreign talents to ensure a replenished labour pool of high quality skilled workers.

But these people are mercenaries ok. We can’t depend on them to be our pillar of economy! I say the first step is to cure the brain drain!

Our policies are damn contradicting sometimes. First its “stop giving birth at two” then it becomes “have three or more if you can afford it”. Yea, I know my social studies at the tip of my fingers.

Have you realised something? After flipping through the whole social studies textbook, it keeps mentioning about what diplomacy, sustaining development, social cohesion all is for the benefit of Singapore, cannot have social conflicts or investors will lose confidence, must upgrade ourselves to sustain the economy and yadda yadda.

Never mentioned anything about sustaining our happiness and self-esteem.

We must do this, cannot do this if not will what what what. I feel like a bonsai tree, constantly trimmed to fit someone else’s whim.

We’re like the kamikazesoldiers, born with a purpose and must die to fufill it.

Everything has become so technical and self-promoting. Like an artificial bell-jar or something.

Ok, I shouldn’t think like that. I should love my country, remember? Even if it doesn’t value you and love you for who you are. It’s for my own good. I should cry as crisis befall us and hug the Sir Thomas Stamford Bingley Raffles statue or something.

Is this entry inappropriate? Tell me if it is alright, I’ll take in down and apologise or something. I’ve made so many sweeping statemnts.

{start of whimsicality}

Today, thy shall embark on a long and arduous journey to the center of the Earth where wizards, broadswords and a court of noble knights exist!

(anyway, long long time ago, the stupid greeks thought Earth was flat and Greece was in the middle of the Earth =.=. It’s china lah, u toot.)

Hold your horses, sire! Something evil is brewing, aye! Treachery is covering the land like crust covering a pie!

Treachery and deception are running rampant, aye! We can’t wait in the wings or we’ll be in the belly of the beast! What say you, mobs and peasants??? Uphold justice I say!!! Muster up courage I say!!! Defences up!!!

volcanic Mount Doom, brimming with negative energy!!!!

{end of whimsicality}

Haha, havent written anything like that in a while.

Anyway, last time I remember got one teacher say that the environment in maris stella is quite condusive then I laugh laugh laugh until my stomach hurt wtf =.=

walau the air there damn bad lah, exhale in carbon dioxide everyday!

Anyway, I speculate that there will be a property boom around Mt.vernon next year, got addition of MRT. If you wanna strike rich, quickly go buy!!!!!! But if the property decline dont find me hor, who ask you listen to a 16yr old with no experience in econmics wtf =.=

Ohya, I wanted to say that zinc (bag brand) can suck my ass wtf!!!! I was embarking on a long and arduous journey to the school as usual, then my bag strap broke! My classroom is on the 6th floor ok! I’m going to boycott them! And if I see any customer patronise their stall I’ll dissuade them from buying into their purchase! I wanna write a letter of complain to the consumers association wtf. I damn poor ok, I’m economically deprived and this kinda thing have to happen to me. T_T

Anyway, didn’t take any photos for a long time. So here! Click to enlarge photos!

I look so humsup here =.=. Was at my hideout, backstage of hall.

Was playing piano! Music calms my soul and gives me a sense of tranquility! Since when did I become so artistically inclined??!!!
This photo damn well taken lah, a little bit hunched-back though. hunch-back of notre dame T_T

slackmate. He’s the pro one ok, he keeps on playing jaychou’s secret. So envious *sparkling eyes*

So basically, that’s my hangout place. Gotta destress you know, prelims coming or we’ll all go cuckoo, cukoo!

“Arriba, Arriba, Andele‘, Andele‘, yee-ha, yee-ha!!!!!

ho hum. I need to speed up my gear, get my act up.

Borrowed books from the school library yesterday to ward off my boredom, all thanks to Andre. I have two academcic books over-dued for 6 months, planning to return them only after o’s. Oh, I’m a man with virtues.

I feel so detached from the world today. I need to gain enlightenment somehow. Maybe I should follow Siddhartha Gautama’s footsteps and sit under the bodhi tree. Then, what if an apple drops down? That’ll be Sir Isaac Newton all over again, hurhur.

I’m being flooded with a torrent of conflicting emotions now. Oh, I shouldn’t leave my mind void like that. Unhealthy. Should not let my brain be a hollow chamber and allow it to build castles in the sky. But Einstein found the E=mc2 formula through that way. But I’m not Einstein, haha.

We have so many standards to live up to everyday. I have failed terribly. I have to please cynical old sods, fit into the crowd. Pretend to like people I dont like. I think I’m too skeptical sometimes. Oh, I have so many prejudices, thanks to mr.confucius and my politician-alike family.

People who have sex before marriage are bad. People who have one-night stands are promiscuous

People who smoke are uncouth. Being disrespectful to adults will get strike by lightning.

People who dont study have no goals. Must upkeep racial harmony, so that we will have regional stability and people will invest in us. Must study hard hard to upkeep singapore’s economy.Bear a cradle full of children to save the economy.

Do not be late for school. cannot be gay. gasp. or your mum will throw you out of the house.

Being a chinese is so difficult, everything is about upholding the tradition and flying the flag up high. But at least I’m better than my ancestors who have to wear ponytails. I should count my blessings already.

Ya, whatever. Maybe I should slacken a bit and start to see the good in everyone else, even if they practised sodomy before wtf. *Beams* Humans are so double-standardized sometimes. Teachers tell us not to say fuck and I swear I heard more than three teachers in our school say the big fuck word.

Maybe I should be more optimistic and smile with my mouth full of teeth so that everyone will like me. Oh, who cares about liking me anyway, sigh. I’m overly sarcastic. I should restrain myself a little. Praise everyone around me, even if they don’t deserve it.

Oh, seriously my social skills are crumbling. I should stop being so schizo and assume things. Stop being so preposterous in my presumptions. I like to assume that everyone hates me, and I’ll adjust myself to fit into the norm. I’ll very hard to crack old hard jokes and make everyone rattle with glee. Then when I find that people don’t appreciate my joke, I’ll cringe.

Oh, this entry is so sadistic wtf. It sounds like the person who wrote this just slit his wrist.

okaes, buaix. I’m cheerfullx nowx. hehex. buaix. Imma gonna study A maths now.

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face
& Nobody’s gonna bring me down today
Been feeling like nothings been going my way lately
I decided right here and now that my outlooks gonna change

That’s why I’m gonna
Say goodbye to all the tears I’ve cried
For everytime somebody hurt my pride
Feeling like they won’t let me live life
& Take the time to look at what is mine

I see every lesson so clearly
I thank God for what I got from above
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can’t succeed in taking my inner peace from me
They can say all they wanna say about me

But I’m gonna carry on
Keep on singing my song

I never wanna dwell on the pain again

There’s no use in reliving how I hurt back then
Remembering to well the hell I felt when I was running out of faith
Every step I vowed to take was towards a better day

Cos I’m about to
Say farwell to every single lie
& All the fears I’ve held too long inside
Everytime I felt I couldnt try
All the negativity I had inside

For too long I’ve been struggling. I couldn’t go on
But now I’ve found I’m feeling strong and Im moving on
I believe they can take anything from me
But they can’t succeed in taking my inner peace from me
They can say all they wanna say about me

But I,Im gonna carry on
I’m gonna keep on singing my song

Whoa, & everytime I tried to be what they wanted from me
It never came naturally
So I ended up in misery, wasn’t able to see
All the good around me
I wasted so much energy on what they thought of me
Simply just remembering to breathe

I’m human, I ain’t able to please
Everyone at the same time, so now I find
My peace of mind living one day at a time

I’m human and I answer to one god
It comes down to one love
Until I get to heaven above

I’ve made the decision
Never to give up
Til the I day I die no matter what

I’m gonna carry on & keep on singing my song…..

The com has always played a pivotal role in my demise, but I’m a willing party! My life supporting system, sigh.

At com lab now arh, Higher chinese lessons rock my socks!

Anyway, A maths {Area under a region} can suck my ass wtf. Seriously, I always have problems visualising things, but they say men are supposed to be visual animals, sigh. I see everyone doing the test like easy breezy Japanesey, I think I’ll end up with 14/25 T_T. Kinematics saved my big, fat ass :D:D:D:D

People always say that I have the highest T-score in the class, supposed to live up to my name yadda yadda but seriously, I think my studying engine has like rusted. I need to keep it roaring again somehow.

Oh, my glorious past. Seriously, I dont know why we have to go to such an extent to validate our abilities/capabilities. I wished that I was born in the 1960’s  when life isn’t so competitive. I must have crossed the reincarnation bridge at the wrongest time, oh mother!

But then again, I should count my blessings. If I’m born in africa, I’ll be stricken with poverty! I’ll suffer from malnutrition and get aids from my mother or something. Being born in a china farm also very kelian if you’re a girl, you’ll be dumped into the shitbowl!!! Nooooo!

Oh wait, I’m studying in a catholic school for goodness sake. I should believe in afterlife!!! Everlasting life!!!! If I don’t commit any sins, that is.

Which means an average of 7 days for one subject. I’m feeling the stress already, sending a rippling sensation down my spine and forming goosebumps all over my body. (primary sch compo ehehehe.)

Seriously, all this suppressed emotion can really kill the biggest mammal alive called the elephant. Wait, it’s not the elephant is it? Whale right? ahaha, I’m a bio student.

Time is so tight. I wished a place called Narnia existed. Then I would wrap all my study materials, food and water in a bundle, scuttle my way through the wardrobe and land myself in the terrains of Narnia. Apparently, one visit to Narnia lasts longer than your corresponding period of absence from Earth. Which means, I can study for gazillion years in Narnia when I’ve only left Earth for a mere milimetersecond!

Sounds good right? Nah, better stop dreaming. I jolly well know fairytales are too good to be true.

Anyway, my mum’s incessant chanting is still ringing in my ears. The whole suaning thing is starting again. She kept on saying I’ll go normal acad during PSLE and now She keeps on saying I’ll go I.T.E or something. Oh, I love you mum. You totally boosted my confidence, upgraded my self-esteem like what a typical mum should do.

So this incident happened like a month ago? I think I’m a habitual liar lah, in fact I think everyone is or has been. Oh I’ll go to hell and burn in it I think. Unless I repent. Oh, the boy who cry wolf haha. I think if something really happen to me, everyone won’t believe anymore haha. Like if I get cancer or something. Oh and my nose will grow until as long as pinnochio to let birds land on it wtf.

(hmm, why am I such an avid believer of fables?)

Okay, so during the day of chinese o levels, I told everyone(almost) on my msn list that. I. *gasp* didn’t.*gasp* wake. *gasp*up. for*gasp*.my*gasp*.o*gasp*.levels.*gasp*

Some people gasped. Some people fainted. Some people became wide-eyed. Ok lah, they are stupid enough to believe me or they are in total oblivion.

Those who knew me well told me to fuck off (oh what polite friends I have.) I dunno why, I get a thrilling sensation when people fall for my trick, albeit a lousy one.

Well, this also tests one’s reaction to the environment! Whether their senses are sharp enough or not. Whether they can smell anything fishy or not.

Ok, so only 3/10 of the people didn’t fall for my trick. Cause they know I’m already in Higher Chinese. Cause they already know I got A1 last year and I’m being hiao bai hahaha.

It was amusing to see different reactions sprouting from different people growing up in different environments, being spoonfed with different informations and inculcated with different values.

I like nick’s reactions the most. He said:” nevermind lah, still can take at the end of the year right?” Bravo! Excellent! wonderful! Marvellous! He totally stood out from the crowd. Because most of the people went like “YOU DIE LAH!” or “zomg, HOW?” Walau, why everyone so cynical one. Can be more refined and composed not?

美丽的文明古国，水上之都威尼斯（但现在已属于意大利了）。可是这张照片死气沉沉的，并没有反映出威尼斯的风采。

但是不用紧，photoshop always saves the day! 哈哈。

经过我一番具专业性修改，有没有让你眼前一亮的感觉？很晶莹剔透勒~但好像有点用词不当，那时来形容皮肤的吧！

所以今天的良言忠告是：千万不要相信网上的照片！也千万不要相信瘦身广告！

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怎么觉得有时候眼睛像沾到大便还是被鬼遮眼似的，

总是错误地审判许多人与事。

或许疾风知劲草,日久见人心这句话很对吧。

要经过一段时间才会原形毕露。哈哈，我不是也如此？人都有双重定义吧。

没关系，何处无芳草！ 干吗为了一棵树放弃整片森林呢？

hmm…food for thought. yumyum. chompchomp. gulgulp. burrrrp. In a sentence, I’ve sumed up the process of digestion wtf.

“But the One strengthens you, lifts you up and does not produce anxiety。 When something isn’t right, your intuition keeps trying to let you know by putting nagging doubts in your mind as well as continual anxiety. This is a gut thing, and your gut is rarely wrong”

So I think that the “unattainability” belongs to infatuation, not love. Oh, why am I so laojiao? Shouldn’t I be a teenager with raging hormones that do the dumbest thing in the name of love?

Erm, been there. Done that. Learnt my lesson. full stop.

Have you ever heard this analogy about finding the right one is like waiting for the right bus? The first bus is too cold and shabby so you wait for the next one. The next one is too crowded so you wait for the next one. The next one the uncle got caobin so you wait for the next one. In the end no more bus shift then you have to walk until your leg break arh haha. Then in the end you kena left on the shelves arh then accumulate dust haha. Then the generation line break also. very chi cham.